"Look Out Big Sky"

Her little boy asked her strait to her face
"Mommy will you ever go into outer space?"
All things are possible alive in her brain
But she cannot believe it, her fate is quite plain
"No I don't think so" is what she replies
Soft, gentle sadness filling her eyes
"Really" he asks, as if confused
"No, honey" she says, sounding amused
She thinks she will not get there, he thinks that she will
Observing it all, quite a great thrill
I'm with Peyton, in this great space debate
Mommy shall fly distances great
She may not get there on a rocket ship like him
But get there she will, and through starlight she'll swim
So look out big sky they're coming your way
Some to explore, some just to play
If God's Grace will be as God's Grace has been
We shall all go together sporting big grins.

Republicans Suck

As a child growing up in the southland I loved me some Ronald Reagan. The man captured me with his ability to speak and convey the thought that he truly cared for his American brothers and sisters. There is now no doubt that the fog of youth was clouding what I was seeing and that things were not as I thought they were. The truth about Republican ideals really took a long time for me to understand. What I had learned of Republicans early on was that they believed in fiscal conservatism, a small government, and no foreign wars unless our national security was in real peril. Yea fucking right! What I have learned by paying attention to their actions and speech is that Republicans really only care about other Republicans and that they are all greedy beyond reproach, hypocritical, and close minded. They certainly do have a good recipe going for some bullshit soup with limitless asshole crackers to dip in it. My speech becomes vulgar because of the level of disdain I feel inside of my heart for them and how they have chosen to govern. I also have very little respect for the assholes who voted for them.They keep trying to give all we have to the ultra rich and overly comfortable and they do it with a great big fucking smile on their face. First, September 11, 2001 happened on their watch. Second, they invaded Afghanistan with advisers numbered almost near a hundred to try and catch the evil mother fucker who took responsibility for the horrors of that day. Then lo and behold they took us into a war with a country that had not one single fucking thing to do with 911. The whole time giving more and more money to rich assholes while fifty fucking percent of this nations children don't graduate from fucking high school and our bravest and most hearty souls get blown to bits while escorting shitters to a building with no plumbing. I guess if you plan on fighting an endless dumb ass war you are going to need an endless supply of people who know no better to fight it. I do not insult the military with these comments. While our military is "all volunteer" I am aware that the majority of ground pounders that serve us do so because they had no choice. I do know this, the military is far more likely to have a steady recruiting line if a bunch of people just don't know any better and can't see a future for themselves any other way. Republicans could give a shit about the sacrifice of our military. Afghanistan proved it, Iraq set it in stone. Not one of those sorry pieces of ass debris has been held to account for these things and that is why my next blog will be about why Democrats suck ass beyond the thunder dome. Back on point, the thing that gets me the most about Republicans is their strong profession of faith in Jesus Christ. I can simply not see how this is possible. Republicans cater to the rich and look upon the weak and troubled with disdain and heartlessness. If you don't have money, to them, you are a failure because you did not achieve the American dream. "Get up off your ass and start doing something" is a response I have heard often while debating Republicans in college. What these idiots fail to realize is that the meek, tormented, and poor exist for a reason, and that reason is to weed out those who refuse to recognize and help the downtrodden. It truly does appear that Republicans think they can buy their way into Heaven and I hope I'm there to see them try and ride a camel through the eye of a needle to get There. Republicans you really do suck. Please wake up.

Suffering in Christ

The world had beaten me to a pulp. There was nothing left. The pressure of life and avoiding all of its pitfalls had crushed my spirit. For nearly two years I completely removed myself from society and began a process of death and of rebirth. While dying I danced with the dark and gave far too much comfort to thoughts like pulling a plastic bag around my head and taping it off at the neck. I had to actually reach the point where I wished for death so that Christ might grant it to me. I am no longer who I was. By removing myself from the world I was able to finally connect with God in a way that I will never have to find again. I now know it. I know the only important thing I will ever have to know again and that is that we are not alone in this. I had to completely take the world out of my life for a very long time to truly reach touch with my spirit. I had to lose every single thing I have ever loved to truly realize that before I made Christ my understood Ally I was nothing. Sometimes the only way through a thick skull is to pound through it with brute force and that is what the Lord has done with me. Tough love does not bother me at all, for He drank my sin and has tasted all of my horrible deeds, if I should suffer to come closer to truth then so be it, I will suffer for it gladly. I think that is what is wrong with Christianity in America. We try and hide the fact that suffering is a huge part of connecting with divinity. We try and be so comfortable and to have everything planned out in advance. There are Americans that are so rich that they would have to have an amazing IQ and a team of doctors just to know all the shit they've got. So much suffering and pain and so much wealth and power. I used to get so angry with rich people and the thought of their lifestyles, but as the days have passed I begin to find myself feeling sorry for them. with ultra wealth it is very hard to know true divinity lest you give most of it away. This being said think of what they have to lose by dying. The one thing they can't buy their way out of and it will cost them everything eventually. There are those who would conclude that they have all of their wealth because the Lord Willed it to them. They are correct about the Will of God, but they fail to recognize the test that the Lord has set down before them. My test has been to simply survive and believe. Their test is far more complicated, for survival is no longer a major concern of theirs and they have little need to pray. Everything they have and all the bundles of money they own pile up between them and God Almighty. I feel sorry for them indeed, for if I had all that shit between me and the Lord I would be in some real trouble...damn. If you are out there and you suffer know that you are not alone. Know that your suffering might very well save your soul.Understand and believe that Christ ingested all of your nightmares and He will receive you from them if you truly believe in Him. We may never know true peaceful dreaming on this earth, but wouldn't it be nice to wake up in His arms?

Great Hope

First and foremost I must recognize that I am nothing, but for the love of my Savior, Jesus Christ. I am capable of nothing without His love. I truly believe inside of my heart that He took the wretchedness and horror of the dark side of humanity and ingested it when passed the cup at Gethsemane. I know that for every horror I have known on this earth, Jesus Christ knew it in the trillions. That being said I am also aware that I have done my fair share when it comes to being a part of the contents of that cup. I have become more and more aware over the years that I indeed did help kill Jesus Christ upon that cross. Jesus' death was not caused by being nailed and hung, His death was caused by the poison of human nature that He drank. We all had a part in it and we should all be in awe of what He did for us. We should all mourn our part in it. So very few ever will and thus "many will be called, but few will be chosen." The concept of Christ is wonderful: ask for forgiveness and blessings and you shall receive them. The reality of Christ is bone-chilling: He suffered and died because we are a bunch of idiots... and we're still a bunch of idiots, if not great bigger idiots. Those who truly know love, know Him. Those who die for the sake of peace know Him. Those who mourn what we have become here know Him. Those who do not even know Him, but bring smiles to the faces of children, know Him. All who know Him will suffer and thus do their part in becoming one with His sacrifice. In this world I have lost everything. I have spent a lifetime pulling my shirt collar out of the devil's hands and having that turd burglar rip my life to shreds. This entire episode has been a training ground. Now through experience I know that I cannot beat the devil. he will always be hounding me. I am powerless against the demons that he sends. It took a very long time, but it was what it was that I might now know and firmly believe that Christ my Ally is my only Hope. It is different for all of us, but the test is universal. By the amount of grace in faith that I have in Jesus Christ through many trials and tribulations, I still have great hope. If you are out there and you are suffering, know that you are not alone and that your suffering could very well be your saving grace. Peace out and God bless.

Ghosthunters?

To mock the dead is folly. It is precisely why humanity is where it is today. The living being only concerned with the living and nothing else. I write directly to the members of the Atlantic Paranormal Society, better known as TAPS. What you have done is beyond reproach. If any of you had any back bone at all you would dissociate yourselves from the organization and start anew somewhere far away. You people really do suck. Your cat is out of the bag and is presently crawling up your leg to latch on to your balls or possibly your vulva, depending. How in the world could you do it? Who ran by that thermal camera at Samuel Mudd's home? How much of your stuff is just complete and utter horse-shit? And Jason does Grant stand behind you naked with his balls nestled on your big fat neck as he whistles and shaves your head? I am not a big fan of being a vulgar asshole, but I am also tired of living in a world where everyone f*%$ing sells out! Don't worry Jason that's not a ghost tapping on your shoulder, that's Grants taint. Have you no dignity? Have you no shame? Have you no respect? You have failed to recognize that there is a price for every action we take. Every time "we're here to help" left your lips you were lying through your teeth. Shame on you Grant, I really thought better of you, but I understand your nuts are on his neck and that leaves things a bit fuzzy for you. You dicks have made a lot of money putting on your little shows and I hope the price was worth what you will pay. When it comes to spirits there is no profit margin. If you f with them you cannot buy your way out. You have been to a great deal of powerful places and do not think that what you did there went unnoticed. My suggestion to you people is that you get down on your hands and knees, and for a very long time, pray that your spirits be cleansed of what now preys upon you. Steve...damn man I really thought you were good people...damn. Goes to show that you just never know. Now when I think of a good night of ghosthunting tv on Wednesday night I'll just have to poop....shit!

America?

What are we? How have we come to this? Growing up in this country I believed with all of my heart that this place was the grandest country I could ever know. Now through the years a terrible truth has revealed itself to me little by little and piece by piece about this America I was born into. This is not a true land of opportunity. This is not a country formed for the people by the people. This nation is solely and totally based upon the amount of shit we have in our driveways and in our bank accounts. The Bible states that the love of money is the root of all evil and with this I peer upon this American landscape with shame and disgust. I think of all the Americans who at this very moment are suffering and dying right under the noses of the citizens who should be helping them out. We fight unholy wars and waste our youth and promise by delivering them into the hands of the devil. We shall pay for what we have become. Our deeds and careless attitudes will not go unpunished. The rich shall be forced to their knees in the presence of the Lord so that they shall see what their money and power has afforded them. Wealth, power, and fame have not gotten us where we are today, they have prevented us from being where we need to be. We need to open our eyes soon or the future will be filled with more tears and agony than the world has ever known at one time.